In my early years, I worked hard to become what the world expected me to be. I had a house in Amsterdam and worked as a sales director for a multinational corporation. I was living the life I was supposed to desire. I suppressed who I was to become what I should be. At the same time, I was not in touch with my emotions and body. Nobody had taught me how to handle difficult feelings when I was younger. My mother died when I was young and I grew up believing I had to “work” for approval. Another huge blow came, when I saw my best friend die right before my eyes.. She was an accident and it really got to me. I found myself feeling lost. I was numbing myself with destructive and addictive habits, all to not feel the stress and anxiety. Until I ended up having a massive burnout. That was a big point in my life. I understood I could not continue living life as I was and decided to take responsibility for my own life and behavior.
A new journey began – I finally asked myself what I wanted rather than what I should want. I looked at my self-image, my beliefs, my work, my sexuality, my entire life, and started to lay a safe and solid foundation for myself. Feeling the pull towards breathwork and tantra, I began to study their practices. I experienced how they allow me to connect to myself.
To my emotions. My joys. My sorrows. My courage. My truth. To life.
I made the decision to choose freedom and entrepreneurship. I gathered what I learnt over the last 15+ years in what I call “Ilumina Tools For Life”: a set of practices and teachings that help me on my path to freedom.
Are you ready to dive into the depths of your being? I invite you to join me on this journey. You already know the way. I create the loving space in which you can remember.